i wonder how long it has been since anyone updated on this blog.. maybe this will be the last post.. maybe it won't.. but anyway.. i've been feeling alot lately.. wonder why.. but suddenly i just miss e sj times.. e times when we bonded through the hard and fun times.. e times when i could rely on friends to support me through.. times when i could cry and laugh as and when i wanted to.. times when everyone felt just like family..

we're all growing really quickly suddenly.. with e girls entering society through work and guys through army.. i dunno wad army will do to a guy's mindset but i think it definitely changes them.. as for girls.. we face the realities of society.. face the hierarchy of a company.. face e boredom of work and wad lies ahead after uni.. and i think tt it makes us seem older than we actually are..

i really miss e times.. miss us all during sq 1 when:
- nobody knew who each one was and there was no politics..
- we played the now extinct game of elope and ran like mad not caring whom we were pulling along..
- we learnt so much about first aid/homenursing/footdrill/toc and had lots of fun getting to know each other..
- we were all immature and innocent and really enjoyed everything tt came along our way..
- we did stupid stuff during camp cause it was our first experience..
- hp was new and e only thing which we looked forward to..

during sq 2 when:
- we learnt to handle greater responsibilities as a senior to the sq 1s..
- we trained so hard just so we could do our school and corp proud.
- a team really bonded through training which would later see them through laughter and tears..
- we start to grow used to each other.
- we kena tekaned more and lectured more by e NCOs
- failure was not just one person's sadness but everyone's sadness..

during sq 3 when:
- we were absolutely tekaned by NCOs for their claim of lack of leadership and whatsoever reasons..
- we were pushed into the deep sea to learn to lead others..
- we were rebellious and would discuss how to pon training..
- we tried to keep e sq together though it seemed to be breaking apart..
- u cried, everyone was there to show support.. or maybe to stare at you
- we made fun of each other for baseless rumours spread by who-knows-who..
- u start to get to know sq mates whom u actually didn't know very well previously..
- we played captain's ball after CCAs..

during sq 4 when:
- we stayed back almost every friday to have crappy meetings..
- dinner was often at 85 market or macs and we always had to wait for e guys!!
- we planned and executed activities together
- we could scold and pump cadets and then later get scolded by mdm teo..
- we couldn't stop e sq from breaking apart and knowing tt drifting away was a process of life..
- we could not even sleep during camp and nearly couldn't make it for tekan session in e middle of the night..
- we knew tt sj was definitely a home where we could come back to when there is none for us

how i miss those times.. which would never come back but can only be treasured as memories and taken out to reminisce once in a while.. ~jiayan bEf0rE**AfT3R